Before I let you read these I figured I would share a little. These writings I have on this post are a little sad but this does not mean I am depressed. Often, when I share "heavy" things people tend to worry. I find it to be a very healthy expression of who I am to share my sad thoughts. I tend to be a super passionate person and sometimes with passion comes a wide range of emotions. I find it one of the most healing things to put my thoughts into written words. My stringed words are not always an accurate representation of what I am going through; rather, these words just display an emotion I have felt or a situation I have seen another walk. I find emotions to be a beautiful aspect of human beings. I wish as people we were not always so afraid of them. I find the most confident people are the ones that never seem afraid to show how they feel.

There is this place deep within,

Where the lies end and tales fade.

There is this depth where only truth can speak.

This battlefield rages in my mind through all

All the false truths all the pain

It all prevails, it all kills

Kills a piece of me every time you through the dagger

I wish I could lie to myself

I wish I could believe their stories.

Just feed me truth and I will leave

No matter the pain no matter the selfish gain

I want truth, in truth there is love

And that is what I want to know, where this love belongs

I need to be held I need to know I belong

running this world so alone so lost

Where did I lose myself when did I escape to this land of misbelief

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You held my hand, promised it would be forever

You touched my heart, said you would never leave

I have forgiven so many times

I have dismissed all your lies

This time I am done

I cannot erase what you have begun

I am starting over, beginning a new

This time I will not include you.

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You promised to be my hand to hold

You promised to be what you knew you could never be

Why did you let such a fragile heart fall

You looked me in the eyes to promise you cared

You looked me in the eyes only to lie

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The pain in her eyes could kill an angel

The one living inside

She put her trust out for grabs

She gave her love for you to have

Such a beautiful soul spread out on the ground

Such a beautiful spirit crying for more

You lead her on, tore her down

You used and abused to toss aside

Selfish people left to their own demise

I wish they could see the war they’ve waged

Broken people left to make a new

Broken hearts up for keeps, let her be